Last Wednesday was a momentous day for me… I handed in my resignation!!!
I hadn’t manage to visit my office since before Christmas as first Bella had chickenpox, then we had Christmas, followed by tonsillitis and a sickness bug! Last week though, we finally made it in.
It was lovely to see my boss, and the girls in my office, and they all adore Bella which she loves!!
We were talking for ages before she asked what my ‘intentions’ were!
Technically I’m not due back until May, but as hubby and I had discussed and agreed that I wasn’t going back it seemed silly to drag out the inevitable. I just said that I didn’t want to hand my baby over to someone, especially now she’s started doing things, like crawling and actually playing with her toys. I wanted to be there for her first steps, her first words, all the fun stuff! It would also be silly of me to come back when we’re planning on trying for baby number 2 (hopefully) in the next few months…
Ok so I’d not got round to actually telling anyone this, but I’ve finally come to terms with my labour and agreed that we should have another baby! But I don’t want to be one of those (very brave) mum’s who are doing the school run with a newborn, I couldn’t cope with that! I’d really like a gap of under 2 years, I guess anywhere from 20 months 🙂 I think that’d be lovely for Bella.
After dropping that bombshell, what could my boss really say?! She did thank me for telling her early though, so she doesn’t hate me I guess!
The next day I told my friend from my NCT group that I’d given in my notice, but I felt really awkward. Her little boy is 5 days younger than Bella, and he’s going to be at nursery 3 days a week as she starts back at work tomorrow. I told her, then immediately apologised. I didn’t want to seem like I was rubbing it in her face, but this is exciting for me.
I know so many people, including this friend, who can’t afford not to go back to work. Obviously this must be a difficult decision to have to make, but for someone like me, I don’t really earn enough to make it worthwhile me going back. With the cost of childcare and petrol, I wouldn’t be making enough to worry about, so we decided I’ll just be a stay at home mummy instead, which suits me fine. I’m going to enjoy every minute with my wonderful little girl, I could always work again when she starts school.
In the words of my darling husband… “you can be a full time bum, I mean mum, now!” haha! Cheeky!